At 6am this morning I was adamant that today was Poppy’s birthday! Instead I ended up being a loner at the LGI …
I woke at 3.30am with back ache – 4.10 – 6am cramps and contractions 3-5mins lasting 50 secs.. YES THIS IS IT! I called the hospital and off we went (after applying my make up and styling my hair of course haha) WHOOOP!
Excitement quickly became the biggest let down when upon examination I was only a mere 1cm – if you’ve been there you know you want to just scream and then feel slightly embarrassed. They decided anyway to admit me to the ward to see if there would be any progress, within a few hrs I had visits from about 7 DRs, turns out were famous at the LGI and everyone knows our story. They all came to meet to me and explain the process and assure us the care plan would be carried out as decided. I appreciated that and felt at ease. Other than some loss the cramps eased and everything halted. So gutting…but when the fruit is ripe im sure she will drop!
With all my dramas with Ethan and Megans births im quite accustomed to being on a maternity ward and monitoring etc thats why this morning I was extremely saddened and shocked to find that I had a lack of Antenatal care once admitted to the ward. No CTG monitoring, no more examinations, no obs…no visits/checks. I literally was put in a room and other than the Drs acknowledging we were there and they were ready for her that was it!!! I was literally sat in a side room like a hostage, when I questioned these things they said “oh there will be no change” and “if we monitor and baby shows distress we will have to act and its not good for ‘limited benefit'” – How are they supposed to know if im contracting if they dont check it?? How do they know whats going on when they dont check? It really upset me that I was left to it, not even knowing myself if the pains were doing anything. All my questions were answered when I read the notes upon requesting discharge – “do not monitor baby has lethal abnormalities” – So there we go, a lack of care because once again the medical sector see her ‘not compatible with life’. How ill ever know if my contractions are real again I do not know! Maybe ill just go in when shes crowning…..