As we reach the end of September 2018, we cannot help but feel gratitude – gratitude for a gentle month that in the past has been so hard. And gratitude for the safe arrival of 2 new nephews/cousins for our children – we are looking forward to meeting them and watching them grow! We are thankful this month that the kids have seamlessly slotted back into school life, and that life overall has been good and positive this month!

September for us has always felt like “dooms day”! As it approaches, our emotions and anxieties are heightened as we prepare ourselves for the anniversary of losing our daughter, and another birthday without her here.

Whilst still reflective (and in some ways still hard) we did not feel that heaviness to the same degree this year and consequently it has meant that this September has been a month that we have enjoyed and found love in. We made the most of celebrating Poppy’s 4th birthday through a floral arrangement for her grave, a balloon release at the lighthouse, and cake and ice cream. Our pictures this month were taken that day – the 16th of September and our 3rd childs heavenly birthday! I like that each September now, however hard or solemn, however reflective or even peaceful we feel, we still get to celebrate her, and we still get to have pictures that symbolise us as a family of 6!

Aside from the build up to Poppy’s anniversaries, and time to remember her more so, September saw Ethan and Megan head back to school for years 2 and 3. They have been on time every single day (which is massive) and are enjoying being on Pack ups this year (for a change). They are both doing well so far and seem to be enjoying it and doing well – we couldn’t be happier with that.

September also saw me head back to college to embark on my Level 4 Counselling course – I have only been back 2 weeks, but so far it feels right and I am excited to get stuck into it and make new friends along the way! I am excited to be another step closer to this ambition of mine and the growth and knowledge that awaits in these next 2 years. Once I am qualified, it will be a huge blessing to our family, and a great adventure for me!

In and amongst anniversaries and back to school, September has also seen a few family adventures around Yorkshire. Our family have enjoyed a trip to the Keighley and Worth Valley Railway (as well as a swimming and disco party for our brother in laws 40th that day!), a coach trip over to Preston to our Temple for the day, and a lovely country walk in the wolds yesterday! When I think about September 2018, I am content in the fact that we have each embraced opportunities and adventures that have come our way. Whilst on occasion we have certainly missed the freedoms and fun of the Summer holidays, we have certainly made the most of this month and for that I am thankful.

As October approaches, we are more than excited (and very much looking forward to), celebrating Ethan turning 8, our 9th Wedding anniversary, and then for half term – heading to Tuscany for a week! It’s going to be an epic month and we cannot wait for all of the memories and fun that await!

In September we are Grateful for:

*A peaceful Month
*An opportunity to Celebrate Poppy and send her balloons!
*Family that came to celebrate Poppy – and for the ones who sent their thoughts!
*For new friends and for them making us feel loved on Poppy’s anniversaries and enjoying lunch out together!
*For a trip to the theatre with Mr Smith (Date night out – hallelujah)
*Mummy and Megs seeing Madagascar the musical
*Country walks
*Bonus sunshine days
*Seamlessly adjusting back to school – and enjoying it!

 

 

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Apologies for the lateness of this post. I literally walked into the kitchen this morning and wondered why someone had moved the page of the calendar over to August?! Turns out it is actually August and the end of the month completely passed me by (what a joke)!

July has been a hugely eventful, hot and busy month in our family, filled with many exciting things and moments of joy shared together. We had our first full family trip through the caves – all kitted out in wetsuits and with a blow up dinghy it was the ultimate adventure/extreme sport enjoyed by us all! Then, of course it was kicked off with the fun and anticipation of England’s brilliant performance in the world cup (remember that?!) and in celebration of it all we went out and all purchased ourselves an England shirt of some description as you will see from this months pictures. It was such an exciting time and we took these pics to remember when history was made! They were taken of us all in Grandma’s garden after the England V Sweden match and to this day I do not know why the kids chose to pose with watering cans!

I love that these family shots are so summery and that they show us so happy and loving life. I love that we are all matching and in high hopes for England and I am grateful for how much spirit they as a team brought to our country at the beginning of July! I look at these pictures and remember those nights we chilled as a family with Pizza and treats, in anticipation to cheer on our country – together.

From cheering on England to cheering on our own little athletes, July quickly brought us sports day and it was another lovely morning spent as a family. Both Kids did super well and it was a glorious day – we felt really proud of them! And then Megan also bagged a silver medal in her Gymnastics competition too.. she is such a little star!

July actually has been quite a winning month for our family, not only from Sports day, but also with the village Show last week too. This month we have attended quite a lot of events in the village (school Summer fair, Village show and a community event at the sports & recreation grounds a couple of Fridays ago). It has been so great to mix with friends and neighbours and we have had a lot of fun as a family at each one. I love that we belong to such a lovely and happening community it really brings me a lot of joy! The village show, as I say though was especially good as it was where the kids both took 2nd place in their egg decorating competitions and I won 1st place for portrait photography (as well as “Best in the show” for photography)! I actually couldn’t believe it and kinda went a little nuts at the revelation. It was such a shock, rather funny and felt mint all at once!

I also won us a National Trust day pass on the school raffel (I only paid £2 for the tickets as a gesture) and then last week, the best news ever – A trip to Tuscany with “To Tuscany”. We are so excited and cannot even believe it – I suppose it is true that things come in threes! July has certainly been generous to us with joys and celebratory moments, like mid July when Alice turned 2 and we had a little picnic on the village green with cupcakes and treats. Alice is such a special addition to our family and it was lovely to celebrate that. The day itself was spent at The Deep with friends and a picnic, then a few days later we headed to the coast as a family and enjoyed chips on the harbour, ice creams and a boat ride around the headland. As a mother it has been so lovely to share these moments with my children and see how much Ethan and Megan fuss over her for her special day… in these moments I am especially grateful.

Finally we rounded the month off with welcoming in the Summer holidays from school and it couldn’t have come soon enough!

July 2018 was quite possibly one of the most epic and celebratory months in a very long time, but with this continued sunshine and school holidays, summer trips and adventures, and more possible job opps for Mr Smith, we are incredibly excited to see where we find ourselves in August!

In July 2018 we are Grateful for:

*Glorious Weather
*Alice in our family
*Winning a Holiday to Tuscany
*Wins at the Village show
*Getting our room just about finished
*A new mattress from Simba
*The Summer Holidays
*Spending time with village peeps
*Beach days

 

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June has been such a busy month for us with family birthdays/parties, DIY, the world cup, Fathers day and more job interviews for Mr Smith! It marked a whole year since we moved from Leeds to East Yorkshire and it saw me finishing off my portfolio and completing on my Level 3 in counselling skills. We finally got Poppy’s headstone on her grave and celebrated our not so little Megsie turning 6! How much has happened in these last 12 months – I can’t believe what June has held for us this year.

By the time we reached the last day of June yesterday, I suddenly realised we had no pics of us all together from the month of June (blogger fail!) which I thought was kinda crazy really because when I think back on all of the moments we have shared this month together, I am really surprised that we never took the opportunity to snap a few shots of us all enjoying them! However yesterday evening we ended the month on a high with some family time at the coast and these pictures were taken yesterday evening before we headed home (nothing like some last minute selfies)! It was a great end to the month and some ordinary moments I needed.

After a morning of DIY and shopping for home stuff, it was lovely to be able to nip to the coast and go swimming together at the leisure centre there (with splash pool and slides). We had so much fun together going wild and letting loose! We all felt grateful to live so close to the coast now and realised that it is in these moments that we feel grateful to have moved here. Some weeks have been hard and, even though elements of it have been and are still difficult, overlooking the blue seas and seeing out to the cliffs of Flamborough are just lovely and enriching to our souls. They make me thankful for where we live and make it all feel worth it.

After a couple of hours of crazy splashes and sliding at swimming, we walked along the harbour and watched the seagulls and boats, had chips for tea and enjoyed some sneaky doughnuts! For those few hours together we escaped normal life and lived life in the way we wish we did more so! It was such a gorgeous evening and made my heart full – it briefly felt as though we were on holiday and that was just lovely!

It was so great to be together and embrace Summer, but it was also great to be reminded of how much we need to spend more time like this together as a family doing these simple fun things. And how much joy we have when we are out with each other.

I am so grateful for our little family and blessed to have each one of them. Life has been heavy, crazy and hard some weeks too, but I look into their little faces and see their smiles and I know all will be okay. I daydream of more days filled with adventures and joy together, that light feeling of simply living the life we want, and I know that in time we can make them our reality.

With only a couple more weeks left of school, we are all really excited to be so close to the Summer holidays now and have loved all of this sun we have been having recently. It has been a real glimpse of the long summer days that await when school is out and that is such an exciting prospect. We are looking forward to more trips, adventures, sports day and school fetes! We are excited for our adventures to really begin, to celebrate Alice turning 2 and to complete a few more DIY jobs!

July we are excited for you and all you will bring us this month – lets keep the sun shining, the ice creams flowing and let’s create more beautiful family moments!

In June we are grateful for

Megan in our Family
Poppy’s beautiful headstone
Sunshine (lots of sunshine)
Ice cream Friday’s at school with our friends/neighbours
A picnic lunch outside of school
Swimming yesterday at the coast
Mummy Finishing her course
Ethan going up another reading level
Alice going down the slides herself at swimming (she’s nuts)
World cup fever!

 

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Here we are at the end of April and what a month it has been – super busy and filled with adventures, a 10.5 hour flight, Jet lag, madness with 2 cousins sleepovers, and a week of glorious sunshine (remember that?!). We started this month off in the USA and our pictures this month are of us on the Vegas Strip – it was a brilliant day and feels like so long ago now!

When April began we were in Utah enjoying the Spring sunshine, and a lovely Easter Sunday with family. 2 days later we went on to Vegas, before heading to LA and home again to the UK! It was such an epic adventure to share together (that you can read more about in part 1 of our USA holiday ) and Vegas was such a fun place to visit, that we wish we had scheduled in more time to be there and see more things! It was a great place for kids and an excellent way to end our 2 weeks in the USA. We all miss the root beer, hanging with friends and family, the heat and just our general adventures. I love these pictures though because they reflect how much fun we were having, and how relaxed we all were chilling in the states together.

Once we had returned and taken a good week to recover from jetlag, life resumed as normal and we welcomed some routine and less fast food in our diet. Id say that the kids struggled that first week back after Easter with a lot of tiredness but it didn’t do them any harm in the long run as Megan had star pupil 2 weeks ago, and Ethan has gone up another reading level. He is doing really well with school his work, and after a now resolved incident with another kid last week, he is a lot happier too which is great.

We loved that heatwave week we had – the sunshine just puts everyone in a good mood and I always feel so much more motivated. Alice and I especially had some wonderful adventures to the seaside to make the most of the sun and had plenty of ice cream and walks with friends! She is doing great at the moment and is so much more interactive with us all. Instead of pointing and grunting to get her own way, she is talking more and loves being in the midst of mayhem with Ethan and megan. They seem to find her more and more entertaining as her speech and character develop’s and it’s lovely as parents to see her fun and loving side coming out (as well as their growing love and fondness for her).

Megan is doing really good at the moment with her gymnastics, and wowed everyone with her awesome moves on Friday night at the churches talent show…she makes us laugh so much and she loves to perform for us and make up crazy dances. Both her and Ethan were keen to perform in the Church talent show, and with Megan’s (improv) dance, and Ethan’s singing, it was both hilarious and a very proud moment!

Both Ethan and Megan very much into the “Match attax” trend, and doing odd jobs for cash so as to build up their collection’s. It’s funny how things do full circle as I remember the same from our childhood and it’s funny how into them they are! Once home from school I rarely see either of them as the lighter nights have meant they have enjoyed a lot of playing out with their pals (one of the things I really love about living here). Myself and the other mum’s have a “what’s app group” so as to keep tabs on them all, and I always think what a vast difference it is to their Spring/Summer evenings when we lived in Leeds!

A couple of weeks ago we cleared out our garden and garage, decluttered a few other things and had a massive tip run in hopeful preparation to start putting our stamp on this house (it’s only taken a year), but the less cluttered garden has meant a lot of friends end up playing here too, and that’s also lovely!

This month has also been good for Mr Smith and I, as we managed to squeeze in a date out as oppose to a take out and Netflix… and I have been doing a lot more in raising awareness for Stillbirth and baby loss with Channel 5, as well as getting on with my course in preparation to finish in June!

It’s been such a random and extraordinary month, and in addition to our holiday over Easter we have also managed to squeeze in a trip to the circus, explore historic houses and churches in this area, and then just this weekend…have a rather eventful Saturday in Hull city centre visiting a couple of cool museums with our 3 nephews in tow!

Next month will be a whole year since we moved, then its into June with Megan turning 6 and lots of family birthdays. We are excited for May… with a couple of bank holidays in there, half term, and hopefully lots more adventures and joyful times!

This Month we are grateful for

Our Epic America trip
Returning home safely and drama free
A tip run and tidier garage/garden
Enthusiastic kids
An opportunity to share Poppy and our story
Family (for helping us out with childcare)
A week of glorious sunshine
MInt chocolate Ben & Jerry’s
A trip to the circus
Living close to the seaside
A village in full bloom for Spring!
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