This week has been a difficult one in our family and by Saturday the last place I wanted to be was half way down the country away from my husband, but he encouraged me to go and have a day out doing something he knows I love and take interest in. I had a ticket to the Body shop at Home spring conference and he was adamant I used it.
As I mentioned last year I decided to take work life easy and found that being a consultant for the Body shop at Home enabled me to build my confidence after Poppy, be at home with my kiddies full time and be involved in things I love (sales, beauty, womanhood) and it certainly has ticked all of those boxes for me over this last year. It has become my little ordinary of parties, facebook sales, extra cash and training and through all of that my confidence and interactions with others have soared, I find joy in being in the spotlight again and enhancing women. I love the banter, the brand and the flow of life. I love the extra cash, freebies and knowledge I have gained and I look forward to the year ahead to grow and develop some more. I like that when life isn’t going well my work load can be reduced and when life is plodding along nicely I can go for it, and it is this flexibility that has helped me grow at a nice steady pace.
I have never been to a conference before and whilst I was exhausted, run down and finding things hard, it was hard to stay in that frame of mind being surrounded by 1,000 women and men so pumped and ready for a new year, new opportunities and products. The whole thing made me feel invigorated and excited. I had a lovely time with my team and manager and listening to some very inspirational people.
One thing I realised, and which stands out to me the most when I look back was how much passion and excitement I felt for the brand, for their focus, ingredients and charity work to protect and make life better for children in Soweto. I was engrossed for several hours and it felt good to feel passion in life again, to feel something ignited within me for an interest I never before had thought much of, something far bigger than me and my life, I had ideas flowing and goals that needed to be set, something so ordinary as “Passion” has been missing in my life and my ordinary little business had delivered it to me. I may not always do this as a job, but I will always remember what it gave me at a time when I needed it and I will always have a love for the brand and their goals!
I know that loss, especially that of your own child causes you to become very internal and selfish, very focused on “me” and “my emotions”, and whilst naturally I do think of others and try to help them, loosing Poppy has caused a lot of that within me over the past year or so, and so on Saturday it was different and it was exciting that my flare came back…I was tired, I was thinking of what was going on back home, but I also suddenly felt on fire to want to be a part of something bigger, I wanted to help more of those who struggle and have little and I wanted to make a difference in the world. I felt driven with personal goals for now with this path I am on and felt excited for the next few months.
The Body shop at Home has become more to me over the last year than a little bit of extra cash in my pocket and a way to be a stay at home mum, it has empowered me and excited me for the future. I am grateful for a husband that pushed me and encouraged me, that knows me and helps me push past fears and worries. Year one helped me grow, helped me regain interest in life again after loosing Poppy and helped me shine again…year 2 is going to be even better, because their Conference has given me passion and passion is like oxygen to ones soul, I suddenly want reach bigger in life and make more of a difference, and I will always thank the body shop for giving that back to me. I not only smell nice and feel good using their products, but I feel excited for life with motivation to do more with what I have been given.