The hospice has done so much for us over the last year that whenever I go back its like going home. There’s a peace I feel there that I cannot explain and it is a “safe place” where I know I can be open about where i’m at and can share anything. From the start they have sheltered me from further pain by offering refuge at the most difficult time and now, at times (like Monday) when I go I know its okay to be sad if I want to or laugh if I want to or feel whatever that day has brought me.
There are a couple of people there that we see as our super heroes, they came to our rescue when we most needed it. Emma from the care team whom we have worked closely with, who helped care for Poppy after birth and who remembers to text us on mothers and fathers days, always looking out for us and always interested in our journey – I love to see her and catch up and laugh together and it was nice to do just that, as well as enjoying a gorgeous lunch together when I went there Monday. Its like seeing an old friend and I know we will never forget her!
Then there’s Lisa – the councillor who has since a few days after the funeral sat and listened, talked, laughed and cried with me and helped me figure it all out. Who constantly assures me its normal and ill be okay, who lifts me up when it all gets too much and reminds me of things I can’t always see in myself (she sat with me again Monday so I could talk about some recent struggles with it all) together her and Emma have created an environment that when I go if Im having a rough time its Okay to let it out and be honest about it, with them there’s no pretending.
We have been doing various things with the hospice since we lost Poppy because they have done so much for us and we wanted to give back some of that super hero vibe to other families – we have of course fund raised and shared Poppy’s story for an Ante natal leaflet and for some funding from Children in Need – and then I have started on with “Poppy’s Gift” which we gave the first of to them and which was gratefully received.
It makes me happy, despite my grief to be working with them on various projects and I love that because of that, now when I go in I am made to feel somewhat like a celeb. As I walk around I am always introduced as and referred to as “Poppy’s Mum” it makes me feel mint (do you know how good that title sounds and makes me feel?) to be acknowledged and accepted as her mum, no buts she died or whatever and no questions – just an acknowledgement that I am her mum. They are grateful to us for sharing her with them and working with them on these things but we are grateful for their super hero attributes in helping us through this journey and helping us to help Poppys memory live on an bless so many lives! #HospiceLove